Samuel Alham Wilson is the fourteenth martyr that I am honoring during #ORANGE21. A murder each day for fourteen days is a heavy reality.
The feelings I have about these murders can be represented by words like senseless, barbaric, meaningless and godless.
From the deepest core of my being, I trust God. From this platform of trust, though, come questions like:
- Are you sure?
- Does this serve your purpose in my generation?
- The beheading of Christians doesn’t please you, does it?
For many years questions like these have drawn me again and again to Babbie Mason’s song, Trust His Heart. Samuel Alham Wilson’s martyrdom brings me, again, to the place of not trusting in my own understanding but to total dependance upon the mind and heart of God.
All things work for our good
Though sometimes we can’t
See how they could
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth
Our Father knows what’s best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim
And you just can’t see Him,
Remember you’re never alone
God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don’t understand
When don’t see His plan
When you can’t trace His hand
Trust His Heart
He sees the master plan
He holds the future in His hand,
So don’t live as those who have no hope,
All our hope is found in Him.
We see the present clearly
But He sees the first and last
And like a tapestry He’s weaving you and me,
To someday be just like Him
He alone is faithful and true
He alone knows what is best for you
Almighty God, thank you for your son, Samuel Alham Wilson. Samuel’s martyrdom calls me to increase my trust in you. You tell me to “lean not on my own understanding” but sometimes that is exceptionally difficult for me. I am trained to make sense of the world through my understanding but you call me to trust you to bring forth meaning from the world.
I want to say, “Lord, will you help this make sense to me?” It is better, I know, to pray, “Lord, help me trust you when things appear senseless to me.”
Today, Samuel’s murder brings me to say, “Lord, I trust your heart.”
Comfort all who mourn today.